The ultimate value of life depends upon awareness and the power of contemplation rather than upon mere survival.
For the past 3 months, I have eaten rice cakes almost every day. Seriously. Rice cakes. What is that about.
I got an internship and am moving across the country in slightly over a month. Stress has taken over my body. A lot.
Why do companies keep jobs posted on their websites after the positions are filled? I don’t know why, but I do know that it is irresponsible, obnoxious, and downright stupid. Come on people. I have a better mind for detail, and I’m not even getting paid to notice these things (yet?).
I am really over this whole Southern food revival fad. I get it. You like fried chicken. That’s nice. New topic, please. Yes, Bon Appetit, I’m talking to you.
The subtitle to this post should probably read: “or, the random things that pop into my head when I’m sleep-deprived.” Sorry about that.
Sometimes I wish I could get a job in the study abroad field. I miss helping other students go abroad and live the dream.
Sometimes, I feel like a huge loser for not being in some distant country right now. It’s a feeling somewhere between jealousy and shame. It’s rather unpleasant.
Other times, I realize what I’ve been doing over the past 6 months is pretty frickin’ cool, and I remember how much I’ve accomplished. The jealousy/shame recedes, if only slightly.
Most of the time though, I think about food. Food in politics, food in culture, food in my tummy. I really, really love food. I really, really want to be “accepted” in the sustainable food field. I.e., I really, really don’t want to be an intern for the rest of my life.
I’m on a 4-week drug to treat my oddly severe acid reflux and am trying really hard to avoid trigger foods. The ever-shrinking bag of chocolate chips in the cabinet did NOT get that memo.
I’m almost waiting to get sick from all the stress I am currently under, so if I disappear, I’m probably curled up in a ball on a couch half-asleep with a cup of tea and half-finished crossword. No worries.
To end on a lighter note…